Attempting to deal with problems that don’t go away is exhausting.
It’s times like these I wish I had the ability to deny my emotions. I’m just not very good at not feeling.
Something to Remember
With candles lit and a glass of wine, I felt safe enough to pour out to my husband about all the self-doubt and anxiety that’s been taunting me. He listened. He spoke words of encouragement.
He got up and put a nerf gun in my hand. He grabbed a few empty cans and said they represented the things I’ve been struggling with as he set them up. He told me I had to shoot them down one by one. And I did.
I feel a lot more comfortable in my skin these days. It feels like coming home, but I know I’m coming home to a new self. A lot has changed but everything feels right.
Ok real quick here just have to say I’m stoked on life right now. Next week Sean and I are headed down to Georgia for our second year at Creative South. It was a life-changing experience last year, and I’m so excited to be able to contribute more this year. (And also pretty excited to have a week of adventure and free of work with my hunny…)
Then I get to start my new job when we get back! I finally found a job at a design studio that I actually really admire and I couldn’t be more excited to get started. I’ve been on the hunt for 3 solid months and it’s been a little discouraging at times, but things fell into place.
Alongside starting this job Sean and I are going to get a place and start our life together and honestly that is the most exciting. It feels good to finally have direction. I know things are about to get really stressful and a lot of change and growth is about to happen, but I’m ready.
“Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways.”— Glennon Doyle Melton (via thatkindofwoman)
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“May your heart be opened to the love that formed you and everything else, the love that holds all things together and shall make all things new in the end, and may that love that was broken and poured out for you impel you into the world to break your own self open to be poured out for the world that God so loves. Poured out in acts of justice and mercy, poured out in good and hard work that brings order rather than disorder. Poured out in songs and liturgies, business plans and water colors, child-rearing and policy-making. May your life be a brush in the very hand of God - painting new creation into every nook and cranny of reality that your shadow graces. Be courageous. Be free. Prune that which needs pruning, and water that which thirsts for righteousness. You are the body of Christ, the light of the world. Pick up your hammer. Your brush. Your trumpet. Your skillet. Your pen. Lift up your head. And walk. Run. Dance. Fly. The great Artist, the future God, calls you into being. So go into your world, your valley, your garden, and create with His grace and in His peace. Amen.”— Benediction from The Crowd, the Critic, and the Muse: A Book for Creators by Michael Gungor
Experiencing pain is a necessary part of experiencing beauty to its fullest.